Rylee is "going under" again!! Tuesday she is having her adenoids removed and possibly having some tubes placed. It's minor and we've been through this exact procedure with Troy. This time, it's so much more risky because of Rylee's medical imperfections. She had a visit with Dr. C who practically clicked his heals that she was having this done. Seriously, he walked in the room and started fist pumping! **Random tidbit of info that I find completely odd, Dr. C's on Facebook! No joke! My coworker told me this. I just find it strange. It would be much much more strange if my dad got into Facebook. Now that's just funny!** He "cleared" her for surgery. Migraine wise for me: I've been having more and more migraines that have dramatically increased in intensity, especially last week. He prescribed me some meds to take daily at bedtime (which are still sitting at the pharmacy) and gave me a sample of some meds to which he said "if they make you feel like shit, quit taking them." **My children's doctor has a nickname for me and cusses when he's talking about my medication, are we FB friend worthy, can't decide!** I also have a lump on my neck. It's a swollen lymph node. Since my paternal grandmother died of lymphoma, it has me concerned. As long as it goes away, I should be fine! Back to Tuesday, these doctors, I swear, must not have children of their own! Rylee isn't scheduled for surgery until 2:30 PM! WTF! She can't eat or have milk after midnight and she's not going to understand why I won't feed her. THEN, take her freaking adenoids out so she feels so rotten that she wont want to eat when she finally can. 1 day without food and she'll be blown away by 1 mph wind. She doesn't have the extra weight to go without food for half of a day. And its not like she'll get a ton of calories in jello or popsicles. I guess I'll have to bring her some PediaSure (she hates the hospital's Pediasure, it's the feeding tube stuff and must taste awful!) For some reason, I am completely nervous about this surgery. No clue why, it is not like the shunt revisions or anything but pretty standard. She is doing the outpatient short stay so she's spending the night. I think that is why they're not doing surgery until 2:30 because they want enough time to discharge her in the morning. Outpatient short stay pretty much means a stay that is 23 hours or less. I have to be home by 3 on Wednesday to see my handsome boys so they better not keep us too long. Pray for her, anesthesia is always a tricky thing with her, pray for the team working on her, pray the I have this uneasiness calmed. Tuesday is also the day that my step brother Rob is going into his first of 3 surgeries to repair his back. Rylee's surgery will be 30 to 45 minutes. Rob's will be 12 hours! This is an extremely risky surgery since there are nerves everywhere and crazy stuff going on in there. He will have to lay completely still for the week following and then back into surgery again. He'll be in a body cast. This surgery, I believe, will be done through his back and the next one through his front/stomach and pelvic area. There will be 3 of the best doctors in the world working on him. He's at Mayo, the best hospital! Please pray for Rob's surgery, pray for those doctors and team that they steady the entire 12 hours and pray for Rob the following week because he's going to need them.
Last week, my migraines picked up in frequency and intensity right along with my stress level. Thursday my stress level peaked. I literally felt it at one point in the day. Last week was bad! Tuesday ended badly at work. I made a couple of errors at work that cost my coworker to stay at work 40 minutes late at work. In the end, I fixed it, all the money, down the penny, was accounted for. I seen it like spilled milk, you're out the milk, she was out her 40 minutes. Mistakes happen right? I felt so awful, she was clearly upset and it was my fault she was there the extra 40 minutes. I went home Tuesday and never in my wildest dreams did I predict what would happen Wednesday. HOLY SHIT! I wasn't picked on too bad when I was a kid, nothing that was life changing or anything, so when all these kids starting to commit suicide because of bullying I never understood, it always gets better right?! I now understand how bad it hurts! Not to the extreme of those kids but it sure doesn't feel good. I have never been bad mouthed so bad in my life, at least what I know of anyway. And it wasn't just that one co worker, that's what floored me. Thursday, I got papers tossed around me, I got doors slammed around me, I still got the silent treatment. Friday was my 5 year anniversary and I spent those precious 10 minutes I got with my husband the entire day, whining how bad I didn't want to go to work. There are only 2 other people in my life that have been able to make this terrible and above it all, I still love them. I seen it as she was out 40 minutes, she practically tried to get me fired. A select few of my coworkers treated me like complete garbage. I care about every single one of my coworkers and seen them as friends. I spent my lunch hour with my sister on Friday, practically bawling in her office. I didn't deserve that. No one's time is more precious than mine and mine is no more precious than anyone else's. What followed those 40 minutes has forever changed me. Complete life lesson. Those 40 minutes have now turned into 3 days of hell! Kris and I had a big long chat Saturday night about this. I don't have the best backbone, I despise confrontation, and I wear my emotions on my shelve. I made a vow to Kris that I will never let anyone make me feel so rotten. I am going to try till it kills me to let those hurtful things roll. I will pool that frustration and take it out in a healthy way elsewhere. I will keep my emotions to myself. I will no longer allow myself to cry where I am vulnerable. That's my vow and I hate that I may come off as heartless and emotionless and lonely, but to protect myself and my those I hold dearest to me, that's what's going to happen. The BSing at work is completely out of control and I will no longer be participating (which is how it should be). I will give 110% effort at work, but when I walk out of those doors, it stays there. Just like when I step foot in the parking lot at work my husband, darling kids and family and friends stay tucked in my heart until I drive away from there at the end of the day. That is my vow and I am going to focus way too much energy in that! I am still going to care about my coworkers, I'll just let them know it after work! Talk of the happenings at Clare Bank ends NOW!
Now, I have to hit the hay and prepare myself for surgery on Tuesday.
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i know this is totally not something that would be easy to your crazy schedule, but i have a friend who has HORRIBLE migraines too. she had them daily for years. they had no idea what was causing them she tried everything. and then her sister suggested she try a gluten free diet. she has been gluten free for a month and not had a single migraine.
ReplyDeletei've done a little research on gluten free diets and it is a lot easier to do than you might think, it's just hard to eat out. just thought i'd throw it out there. sorry you had that big blow up at work. my mom is a teller and is dealing with horrible issues too, though she's pretty sure they're going to fire her and she's been treated unfairly. *sigh* she's really upset by it, but on one hand yes she was treated unfairly, but on the other does she really want to continue to work for/with people who are actively trying to get her out of there?
anyway, that's not your concern. i hope rylee's surgery went well! do you update about her on another site? i did try to find it once, but couldn't. i still keep you all in my prayers. just wanted to let you know i was checking in to see how her surgery went. *hugs*